1 WEEK NEW!

As I sit here looking at the clock on the wall it reads 3:00 am. But I'm sure by the time I get to posting this it'll be at night. Working in some "me" time in between feedings, diaper changes, cuddles, and sweet kisses; is difficult. But that's life with a new born! 

I ended off at 36 weeks and the mind struggle of whether my step daughter will have the love for her little brother, like I did my siblings. I didn't doubt she wasn't excited but just that given she's 7 years old and at her age babies aren't very fun. So I'll finish up with 37-39 1/2 weeks. 

37 WEEKS

38 WEEKS

39WEEKS

As those last few weeks went by my body just physically could not handle being pregnant any more. The back rubs weren't working. Climbing up and down stairs and bouncing on my yoga weren't either. So I made the decision to be induced. I kind of didn't have a say as to the date. I called on Monday and was set to be induced Wednesday morning at 5:30 am. So needless to say my life was about to change quick! And the 7th was the most perfect day since 7 is my favorite number of all time.

Tuesday night we checked into the hospital and I was given medication to kind of get the process started. In the middle of the night my contractions begun but nothing consistent. So the potocine was started at 5:30AM!! My water had broke around 10 and right after that the contractions got way worse. Now I'm not trying to be a hero, I thought it'd be cool to go natural like my mom did with me. But again, I'm no hero. Epidural came in about 12! From then on it was numb butt city. I could still feel and move my feet and calves which is great! Because I still wanted to be able to feel the sensation of my son being born. Then by 5:30PM it was time to push. I pushed for what seemed like eternity but was only shy of an hour. I had Todd there as well as my mom and his mom. We all know I love my man but I think one of the best parts was that my mom was there. Cheering on her baby to have her grand baby. And it was the BEST EXPERIENCE OF MY LIFE. 

I gave birth August 7th, 2013 at 6:19pm to a blonde headed blue eyed angel weighing in at 7 lbs 10oz and 20 1/2 inches long named Jaxen Robert Godley. I was in the love. After he came out of the birth canal they laid him on my stomach and began to clean him off. This baby boy has a set of lungs on him for sure, but as soon as daddy started talking to Jaxen he stopped crying immediately. Todd and I always wondered if he'd recognized his voice since we had opposite schedules, and we were proven he does!!

After Jaxen was cleaned off family was able to come in and Lilly was the first to meet her new baby brother. The beam of excitement on her face was priceless and the "yay" she made after she saw his blonde hair was hilarious. She said "good he looks like me!" The rest of the families ohhs and ahhs were reassuring that I truly had a cute kid!

I can't get over the fact I carried this precious tiny human in my belly for just 2 days shy of 10 whole months. I was pregnant for almost a year! I'm going to miss feeling him squirm around in my stomach and being a part of me. But I am loving having him here. And being able to touch him and kiss his sweet little cheeks. My baby boy is the most perfect little human being. I get so teary eyed just thinking about how wonderful my life has become  I am beyond excited to use this blog to track his growing. It'll be something for us to look back on and remember exactly how I felt at each moment of our lives. My baby is finally in my arms!

40 WEEKS

1 WEEK NEW :)))

im still breathing

--april